It’s been a while…
It’s funny how life can change in the blink of an eye. You live each day as a routine and get stuck in a rut then BAM something happens, and you wake up. Over the past few months lots has happened but more recently a tornado hit the STL area and boy did it do some damage. We unknowingly drove right through it to check on a property right after it happened. Seeing the devastation and the house/cars smashed by falling trees was jarring. We did NOT expect to see what we saw. With that said what we DID see was heartwarming. People were literally pulling over and getting out to help, whatever that may have been. It was an all-hands-on deck situation. Even with the traffic and the confusion people just threw that aside and got out to help. At times like these it reminds me that there are good people in this world.
Now, with that said here are some things I observed:
(some) People don’t want to be bothered unless bad things happen to them then they expect all the sympathy. I would bring up the situation of driving through the devastation and people would lose interest… say oh that sucks and move on OR change the subject completely. Like WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?
People are too wrapped up in their own lives to care about other peoples. OK so hear me out… I agree that you should care about yourself and not bother with other people’s lives UNLESS it is a natural disaster or accidents etc. I am not saying go out of your way but at least listen or have empathy for those affected.
Working and being around those whose homes were destroyed made me realize that life must go on. Yes, they are going through it and yes it sucks but they still have jobs, kids, dogs, etc
I get it, everyone has their own life to deal with, and every day presents a new challenge whether it be good or bad. Its times like this when I stop dead in my tracks and realize that life is soooooooooo incredibly short and we are all living on borrowed time. I really wish people would understand this more. These last few months, with the rejection of some people whom I thought would be a part of my life forever to moving and job opportunities…. I am ready to take life head on. Fuck all of it. Fuck the judgement. Fuck the people who don’t make time for me. Fuck the fake friendships and relationships. Fuck the preconceived notion on how I thought my life would be at 40. FUCK… IT…ALL. (and I say that in the most loving way possible… no hard feelings or sadness or anger) I do not care and it’s not in a way that stems from anger, I literally don’t have time to care. I am ramping up my coaching/lifestyle business and working more on this brand too. I have plans and I fully intend to make them happen. If people want to stick around, then please do! If you aren’t up for the challenge of being in my life (cuz its most definitely a challenge) then kindly see yourself out. I have met some really special people lately that are teaching me things about myself that are good and that I should be appreciating instead of disregard. I am grateful for the people in my life, and I hope they stick around for the ride because I am so excited to see where life takes me.
Moral of the story…. life is short. Do the thing. Do all the things. Do what makes you happy when it makes you happy little or small it doesn’t matter. Fuck “the plan” cuz you may not be here tomorrow. Live for today because tomorrow is not promised.