Here we go……….

Life really has a way of kicking you when you’re down. It also has a way of showing you that you can literally do anything you put your mind to… with a little hard work and big dreams. I’ve had some pretty fucked up shit happen to me in my lifetime, some stuff people know and some stuff they will NEVER know, and I prefer it that way. Now some could let that define who they are, and some can use that to better themselves. I choose to take my “trauma” and treat them like learning experiences. With that said I approach each experience as if it will never happen again. Call it a defense mechanism if you’d like, but I just call it being prepared. I like to take bits and pieces of every person I have met along the way. It makes me who I am. Some say it’s weird, but I believe we all do this subconsciously… keep the good and learn from the bad!

As well rounded as I think I am, I’m also a walking contradiction. I dislike people yet I like being around some and crave meaningful relationships. I dislike social settings yet love being around people. (That don’t drain me) I hate small talk but love getting to know people. I love… love, yet am terrified of it. I love my alone time yet sometimes hate being alone. I’m a tough as nails bad ass bitch with a don’t give a fuck attitude, yet I care deeply for some and have big emotions. I say I don’t need help yet most of the time I do. I will love you hard and I mean HARD but cross me and you’re dead to me. There are so many more I could list but we’d be here all day. :)

I may not be aesthetically pleasing or “normal” and honestly, I don’t want to be. I’m a messy bun, over-sized hoodie, leggings wearing, cowboy boot loving, foul mouth woman who runs off little sleep and copious amounts of caffeine. I love my people and wear my heart on my sleeve. I sing and dance all the fucking time and it doesn’t really matter where or when. I have an internal playlist running in my head constantly and my internal monologue tries to sabotage anything that’s good for me daily. I’m at a constant battle with myself and to love me will drive you bat shit crazy. I am not for everyone, and I understand that. I can sniff out a liar from a mile away and will call you out on your bullshit. I match energies so if you don’t like my attitude chances are you should check yours. So, I tend to keep my people close because I know they put in the work. As difficult as I am, once you’re in I will take care and fight for you till the end. I’m often time misunderstood and many consider me difficult with an attitude or better yet “too much”. I just like to say it's because I speak with a purpose and passion. Unfortunately, that doesn’t always settle well with others… total Capricorn vibes.

So that’s me in a nutshell. Or at least the real me…not the one I choose to show others. I’m sure if you ask others, they have a completely different opinion of who I am. So, I invite you to make your own judgement and I welcome you to my shit show of a life! Buckle up buttercup cuz it's a bumpy ride!