I’m an Over-thinker and it’s fucking exhausting….

I’m exhausted… daily. Mostly mentally but also emotionally. My brain NEVER stops, never. It’s constant noise in my brain and I try so desperately to calm it. I like to describe it like this… one of those monkeys with the symbols making circles around my brain along with an internal monologue, songs on repeat and constant noise. So add over thinking literally every situation on top of that and it s fucking circus! 🎪 That’s why I’m always exhausted.

Now I will say I have gotten better over the years to compartmentalize all the chaos. It’s still there but controlled. I know it has a lot to do with being highly sensitive to peoples energy and my anxiety. I’m an anxious person in general. My baseline is others threshold. I hear everything. I see everything but most of all I feel everything. All that leads and aids to my over thinking.

Most people can hear a sentence and take it for face value. I can’t no matter how hard I try. For example when someone says (and this is the WORST thing you can say to an over thinker) “you can come over… if you want” OH HELL NO! If you want?!? Seriously the worst thing ever. Most hear that and think hmm ok they’re fine either way and if I don’t want to I won’t. I hear that and think… do they want me to? Are they saying that to get out of me coming over? Are they ok? Do they REALLY want me to come over?! It’s absolutely ridiculous when I say it out loud I know.

I know most people over think to a certain degree but not me. I’m an overachiever! I take it to the max and end up absolutely 💯 exhausted. My people have noticed it and have helped me nip it in the bud before I hit that wall. I’ve gotten better because I’ve learned tricks to work through it. I sit in it and think of every possible outcome so I’m prepared for anything. That’s way I’m not disappointed. Now that I’m saying this outloud over thinking seems to be a coping mechanism I use to protect myself 🥴

Regardless of the reason I know I’m not the only one who suffers from this. My words of wisdom is to talk it out. Be upfront and honest with people and yourself. If you’re spiraling then talk it out. You’re never gonna know unless you communicate your feelings. Once you get that out of your brain then it frees up some space for more productive things.

*side note……. Still working on this! As I sit here and over think and feel myself hitting a wall. BRB while I go get some coffee ☕️